Four

Isn't that sad that we no longer wait to talk in person, the sleepless nights until you can see them again. Or the eight hour phone calls with the person you think is 'the one'. There gone! Instead today we wait for the text; the electronic device that is chalked full of emoticons try to capture a human spirit. How sad is that? The chase the wait the excitement of waiting to talk to someone face to face. The space that strengthens the relationship is missing and instead we are left with a feeling of confusion. We are left confused if ':P' means yay, or gross, or maybe its simply something to fill the gap that is left in our conversations.

But anyways...

Again I have another post about a guy, but this is different this isn't a post about the past or how my life ended up where it is today. Nope this is all about how I ended up here, right now not in general but at this very moment. After a some what exciting day waiting for a text that I don't think is ever going to come. To be truthful I know it won't and I guess it should comfort me to know he fell asleep waiting for a text from me, but it doesn't. He didn't answer, and hasn't yet, damn.

So let me tell you a little bit about Jason, just so you know. So I can't say that I know him well, not that I don't want to be simply because I just met him. Now I'm not totally irrational I know there's no such thing as love at first sight simply in-faction. But I also know I've dated a lot of guys and Jason and this is not in-faction. Now I'm not saying I love him, I don't. But I am saying him and I get along wonderfully. He and I both have an abstract sense of humor, he and I are both tall, and both seem to have a decent set of values. Jason is a football player, a runner, shy, funny, and nice and although he's not what I usually go for something just says that he's okay.

I used to have a very specific type of guy, I went for older, clear face, hot, taller than me, and could drive. In a way I guess I still do. Now its not like that's all I look for in a guy, but it was defiantly one of the first things that I did. But recently I have found that I'm the older one and I'm left wondering if this is something that I should still be looking for. I mean guys have always liked me, and I'm not trying to brag, because bragging is gross, but I have always had guys hitting on me, asking me out, and looking to date me. But this year the only guy I've been with was David... and I can't say as I like it. But back to Jason, he's a brunette, about my height but then again he is still growing and the only time I can grow is when I'm put on heals. He doesn't have a clear face but for some reason that doesn't seem to be bothering me, which is new. He doesn't have braces or any piercings. In all truth he isn't really that hot, just cute. But when ever I talk to him I'm left feeling I've had a good conversation. Now the question is does he  like me, fuck.